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Evo is our second miracle, Evan. I remember talking with my husband, shortly after we had adopted CJ, and saying that I felt in a way that I was incomplete. I was so very happy, I was so in love with my little man CJ – he was everything I had ever wanted and so much more- and as I uttered the words it seemed so selfish! It really didn’t make any sense at the time – it was so “unlike” me. Through heartfelt tears I continued pouring out my heart, sharing how I had wanted to know the joy of finding out we were expecting and experience having a baby. At the time, I had no hope of ever experiencing things like ultrasounds, the anticipation of finding out the baby’s sex, the waiting and growing as our baby grew, or the experience of labor, delivery and so on. It just wasn’t in our cards. It was not a lack of faith; it was merely an acceptance that God had a different plan.
Many months after my revelation and after weeks of battling uncontrollable mood swings, exhaustion and a few episodes of nausea, my husband suggested that I take a pregnancy test. Despite everything, I had absolutely no desire to ever take another pregnancy test again. Anyone who has had trouble conceiving knows what I’m talking about. I just couldn’t bear to see another “not pregnant” sign!
A few days later, while cleaning out our bathroom cabinet, I came across one unused pregnancy test stick. It was almost expired, so I figured why not? I took the test, tossed it on the back of the toilet and went on cleaning away. A long while later, I remembered the test and to my surprise it was POSITIVE! It was so strange because I was so very afraid to hope, so very afraid to be happy.
It wasn’t long before I started the list of excuses on why the test was faulty…it was almost expired, it had been sitting too long, the line wasn’t pink enough. But it wasn’t faulty, it was perfect. I took two more tests and they were perfect too. After I got over the initial shock, I was elated, thankful, etc.
So after years of trying to conceive, an adoption and only a year of being parents to CJ, we got pregnant! God knew my desires better than I did and His plan trumps all (and I love that by the way)!
I didn’t think it was possible, but we’ve been blessed with two amazing boys! Evo is so adventurous and daring. He’s so very smart for his age! He has a sweet yet mischievous nature to him. He’s so different than CJ, he is his own person. Our hearts grew the moment we found out he was growing inside of me. He’s brought so much joy to our little family. I’m so thankful for our second miracle, Evan!
